I’m mad at the fact that I can’t stay mad at you.
I’m sorry I couldn’t keep an interesting conversation. I’m sorry I didn’t get along with your friends because they’re totally different from who I was. I’m sorry I couldn’t dedicate ever second of my life to you. I’m sorry I apparently didn’t try hard enough. My bad.
Yeah frowny face because WTH AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW
Sure, you’ll see me laughing it off with my friends, but I really just have all these mixed emotions stuck inside of me. I get fucked with and I guess I wanna throw everything away now at the moment.
Everyone I used to be close with, it’s not the same anymore. The people I used to talk to on a daily basis, are just like all my other friends, people I talk to every now and then. I don’t like thinking about it, but it’s true. All the people I once was close with, we’ve all kind of just went different ways. We’re still friends and everything, but I miss talking and hanging out with someone on a daily basis.
I’m usually optimistic about most things, but the stress is just really getting to me and I just can’t seem to handle as much anymore. I need some type of motivation. I don’t want to keep telling myself that things will get better when I know damn right its not. I want to feel like I’m genuinely happy again, and actually just smile just because I’m in such a great mood. But somehow, its a little hard for me to do so.