I’m mad at the fact that I can’t stay mad at you.
October 2011
I'm sorry.
I’m sorry I couldn’t keep an interesting conversation. I’m sorry I didn’t get along with your friends because they’re totally different from who I was. I’m sorry I couldn’t dedicate ever second of my life to you. I’m sorry I apparently didn’t try hard enough. My bad.
In 10 years, I wonder who is still going to be by my side.
So..I finished Kh :C
Yeah frowny face because WTH AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW
I'm not happy as I used to be.
Sure, you’ll see me laughing it off with my friends, but I really just have all these mixed emotions stuck inside of me. I get fucked with and I guess I wanna throw everything away now at the moment.
I think I've drifted from everyone.
Everyone I used to be close with, it’s not the same anymore. The people I used to talk to on a daily basis, are just like all my other friends, people I talk to every now and then. I don’t like thinking about it, but it’s true. All the people I once was close with, we’ve all kind of just went different ways. We’re still friends and everything, but I miss talking and hanging out with someone on a daily basis.
I hate my life right now.
I just need a little break from reality.
I’m usually optimistic about most things, but the stress is just really getting to me and I just can’t seem to handle as much anymore. I need some type of motivation. I don’t want to keep telling myself that things will get better when I know damn right its not. I want to feel like I’m genuinely happy again, and actually just smile just because I’m in such a great mood. But somehow, its a little hard for me to do so.
Admit it, when you’re trying to convince yourself that something doesn't bother you, it usually bothers you more.
A.D.H.D.: Why do people look to death →
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I know I’ve kinda spoke on this already, but I just saw something that bothered me. I feel like there’s so much to do in life. There’s more good that outweighs the bad. And in the big picture, what you are going through is just a small speed bump in your life.
People say they’ve, “done everything”. Have you changed locations? (schools, city, etc.) Have you changed your phone number? Have you changed the people you associate with? Have you changed the way you see things?
&Even then. Find the positive things that make you happy. Read a book. Listen to good music. Get a job. Find something to occupy your time. Stop dwelling on the bad. Why jump to death so soon, when you have such a long life to live!? If you see your life going nowhere.. make it go somewhere! It’s YOUR life. You control your happiness. I promise you do.
I could have been that person though, I was down on myself for a while; no confidence, no self esteem, I could have let myself hit rock bottom at a time when I had all the reasons to. But I never lost myself because I control what I do. I’m just saying you know, life is good if you let it be.
I honestly suck at texting people back.
